Snapshots of Love

[Taken by me, using Kim’s Blackberry Curve, on July 30th, 2009 whilst we sat outside and enjoyed the nice weather.]

Although he is only three months old, he has perfected his “looks”. You know, the ones that say “WTF” and “I CAN’T believe you did/say that!” etc etc. It’s amusing. For a 3 month old he has a very wide range of facial expressions and conveys his emotions perfectly. Actually, he’s always been this way.

Another reason why I love parenting.

It’s a beautiful mystery,
How people find one another,
How we can fall in love.
And we don’t know how it happens but it does.
All the pieces fit together and the world stops, yeah.
Nothing else matters.
Oh, nothing at all.

I’ve been wondering.
Something is coming.

It’s here and now.
Yeah, my empty spaces, girl you erased them
All somehow,
And the moment I met ya
I could’ve bet you’d be
All that I’d ever need,
Yeah, there’s nothing I’m missing now.

Yeah, there’s nothing I’m missing

Now it’s undeniable,
That you made me believe the unbelievable,
That you gave me the only thing
That I didn’t know I didn’t have.
And now it’s obvious, looking back,
That I had to have you.
Now I do.

I’ve been waiting,
Hoping, praying.

It’s here and now.
Yeah, my empty spaces, girl you erased them
All somehow,
And the moment I met ya
I could’ve bet you’d be
All that I’d ever need,
Yeah, there’s nothing I’m missing now.

Nothing I’m missing now.

Oh, I’ve been wondering
When something was coming.

It’s here and now.
Yeah, my empty spaces, girl you erased them
All somehow,
And the moment I met ya
I could’ve bet you’d be
More than I’d ever need,
Yeah, there’s nothing I’m missing,
Nothing I’m missing now.

~Steven Lee Olsen, Now

Photo [also] taken on July 26th, 2009 by my fiance Matt.

A slight example of why I won’t be posting TOO many photos from my camera, but I still love this photo.

Photo taken on July 26th, 2009 by my sister Kate.

I love dressing Nolan, he looks adorable in anything I put him in. I particularly love this hat…it’s adorable! I think I got it from a friend of the family. He also has this adorable wool sweater that was worn by my dad when he was an infant. I’ll have to remember to take a picture of it next time he’s wearing it.

Nolan Daniel, photo taken July 26th, 2009 by my sister Kate.

At first, I wasn’t too sure about using this photo as my Facebook profile picture. Then I thought, screw it. Breastfeeding is natural, and you can’t see anything anyway. I love this photo; I love the way Nolan is looking up at me with his bright big blue eyes (although you can’t tell they are blue here). It’s just a beautiful picture.

Breastfeeding is amazing, I can’t even describe the bonding experience we share on a day to day basis. That’s when you truly learn about your child. When he gets scared or worried, he’s forever reaching out to me - even now. If we end up in a strange place, all he wants to do is be in my arms.

He’s beautiful.

My son, Nolan Daniel, was born 3 weeks premature on April 23rd, 2009 - which also happens to be Shakespeare’s birthday. On the day he was born, I went down to Toronto for my weekly OB appointment. I was considered a “high risk” pregnancy thanks to an unknown bleeding disorder I’ve had all my life. On this particular day, I woke up with a great expectancy on my shoulders, although I wasn’t sure what that great expectancy was. After my OB checked me out, I went into labor. Nolan was breech, so he was born via C-Section at Mount Sinai hospital. Unfortunately, he had fluid on the lungs and spent the first few weeks of his life in NICU - first at Mount Sinai and then he was transfered to Oshawa.

This photo was taken on our third day at the hospital, so April 26th, 2009, by my mother in law Kim. It was an emotional time for me, having my newborn child so close yet so far away. I could only touch him at certain times of the day, and I could only hold him once a day. I can’t imagine the mothers who have to deal with their babies being in NICU for months at a time. I can tell you now two weeks is hard enough.

Most of the photos on this blog will be of my family and the things in life that I love. Several of them will be taken by other people, but I will conclude my own photos as soon as I get a new camera (my camera sucks). A thousand of those posts will revolve around this darling boy, because he makes the sun rise every day.